Featured Miracle Team Member – January 2012

Natali “Indiiya” Sztevanovity

I am honored to share my story with you at the beginning of the historic year of 2012.  What a gift to be here!  My heart reaches out to all of you; may we all stand firmly in our truth, in our love, present to the light and the miracle we all are!

When I was little, all I wanted was to be a Jedi.  I was sitting in front of objects for hours trying to move them.  I thought that being of service to the world(s) was the coolest thing ever.  Then I started to grow up.  The outer influences, peoples opinion started to get to me.  I was labeled many things — naive, childish… mostly a little crazy (or fancier words by therapists).  All we learn as we grow up is not to trust anybody or anything, not even ourselves.

I could never believe them.  I could never give up.  I went into hiding.  I tried many forms of density as a cover.  I tried to fit in somehow, although I could never find my place.

I was waiting for something.  The world saw me as a lost case, even I did sometimes, but deep inside something always said "just wait".  Just days before the end of 2010, days before my wedding (the 2nd) I stood on the shores of Mexico looked up to the sky and cried "Enough!  I am here!  I love you!  Tell me what to do!"

Some months later on the search, yet still on the run, I sat down to read an e-book my father had randomly downloaded for me.  It was "2013 The Mayan Sunrise".  At first I couldn’t believe what I was reading… like someone took my deepest thoughts, my heart’s secret questions and formed a book out of it.  First time since my early childhood, I felt I was not alone anymore.

Just weeks later, I was in Guatemala, at TOSA La Laguna, on a 5-day Private Intensive with beloved Sri and Kira.  It felt so familiar yet it was very hard.  It was so far from my life style at the moment, but it was close to my heart.

That was it.  I was hooked!  I knew I wanted to be a Certified Self-Ascension Coach.  I knew I wanted to live self-ascension.  I knew I was home.

After all, in many ways what I was dreaming of as a kid became my reality.

This all happened seven months ago.  Now I AM — a joyous person, a CSAC, and a Miracle Team Member.  I am part of an incredible community.  More than that, a family!  I am so grateful to Sri and Kira and each member of the TOSA community!  I love you all!

I AM HERE!  I AM READY!  I AM OPEN!  I AM GUIDED!